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It's as if my body is telling me that week by week for the past years that I have been steadily destroying the life within me, this is the time for it to rest, like plains of grass creeping up the edges of rice fields after the harvest, renewing the land.

I've been out of contact of most people I know. Great, isnt it?

Loneliness is a driving force for thought to develop. It gives a person total awareness of himself, at times giving him enough space to reason out the things that happen to life, much like what philosophers do before going into discourse. For me this is the time to make peace with myself. I admit, I am not lonely as of this moment, but i reckon, loneliness still resides in my being.

Or maybe I'm just being too serious.

In those dreaded years of my life, I got a taste of what really is being out there for quite a few times, and I didn't like it. It's a dog-eat-dog world. If you want to stay alive, you give out concessions. And that broke me. I never was the one who use connections to get what I want. I always did it the hard way.

But now.. Im just going with the flow, thinking of ways on how to use this abysmal society we are living in to further my goal. And at the same time be a person with dignity.

How do I do it? It'll come someday. And I hope it wouldn't be too late.

This year has yet to enter the half, and "surprises" have spilled out into my horizon.

i kinda agree with this one..

Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic

You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic! You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale. You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are!

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I really want to pursue that stages thing in trumpets.. but Im still reluctant and scared to do so.. theyre having auditions for playshop students who wants to make it as singers, dancers, actors etc. this wednesday around 430.. I do want to audition for the thrill of it and also because I want to prove something to myself.. I really want to be a singer thats my dream eversince I was a kid and I do wanna MAKE IT happen so Im planning to audition... but fear is holding me back.. *sigh* help me?!

Anyways, I am so lurving my musemates!!! hehehe.. Im one of Donna's *go tippy* muse in our play Mamma mia and Im lurving it more than my Amneris role in Aida before.. well, not really, but heck, YEAH! hehe.. you can never blame me! its stress-free!!! haha! all we do is dance and talk to each other.. and Im really enjoying it now!!! yey!!! hehehe!

I want to munch a white chocolate chip cookie right now.. talk about craving?!

Im *naaasar* to aixx.. LABO.

Advance Happy Birthday to STEPH TANG!!! see yah monday!!! =)

DIANNE!!! see you sunday?! hehehe.. ano? is it tuloy ba? i mean tau? sana c ellen dn noh? kaso nga Im scared to death! sasama daw c babila.. nuod daw cia satin.. gudluck to us, if ever! hehe!

BABILA!!! thanks for the company last friday.. ang kulet mo! hehe! thanks for the kwentos and the laughters.. you made my day! =)

ELAINE.. I think Amneris sucks.. *so that means I suck too?nahh* hehehe.. GO for AIDA!!! hehehe! gudluck to your audition friend =) ive already uploaded our pixxx from ellen's fone.. you could check it na at my multiply site..

ELLEN.. i love your fone!!! akin nlng? kidding! hehehehe! ;P

PAULINE.. cant wait to see you monday.. GO WORLD PEACE! haha!

CHRIS.. i raaaaak too you know! hehehe! alabyuuuu chris!!! donna's muses rules!!!! WE RAAAAAK! =D

CHRISTINE.. white chocolate chip cookies raaak too right? hehe!

MICA, ARA, HANNAH: alabyuuuu all!!! we muses raaaak big time! =D

MTF PPL: GO FOR WORLD PEACE TOO! hehehehe! ;P we only have one life to live so live it WELL! stop hatin'! start lurvin'!!! =)

shocks.. im torned.. i really dunno if i'll audition or not.. im reluctant and scared.. geez.. oo nga walang mawawala kung magaudition ako o hindi db? pero ewan ko.. im really scared.. baka kasi maulit e.. i mean.. basta.. pero singing is passion and i really wanna pursue it.. bahala na..